I am a perfectionist and I can't let go.
As a design student I am constantly in the midst of at least one creative process and somewhere on the way I always find myself in a never ending cycle of non-constructive self criticism. I always struggle when it comes to finding that spot when it's time to finish and let a project go. I never get that satisfying feeling of accomplishment.
In my first semester I have not handed in a single assignment that I have felt completely happy with and recently I started asking myself: Am I just a bad designer?
No. I just think I am and that's what affects my academic performance negatively.
Overworking is vicious, but in order to stop it I have realized that I have to change my entire creative process. From drafting to finishing touches, every step is heavily affected by almost subconscious self-evaluation process, accompanied by doubt.
"I can't do that, I don't know how to accomplish that, I don't know if that's really a good idea."
It's time consuming, boring and not very helpful. It has to stop.
So, this is it. Today I'm facing perfectionism and starting my journey toward being more constructive and kind to myself. From now on, I accept good enough. I will start following through even on the ideas that seem crazy at first. From now on I am going to keep an open mind and accept that I can't make everyone happy, which means I'll have to prioritize. I will strive to make myself happy, allow myself to be proud of my designs and illustrations and remember that I'm here to learn how to be a great graphic designer, but also how to develop strategies to get there.
My perfectionism is not isolated to my academic performance. Figure skating is a sport where the strive for perfection is the very core. However, I enjoy all the hours put into making a perfect spin far more than the ones spent staring doubtfully at a computer screen in the middle of the night before a deadline. So... I guess I'll start with one area of my life.
Being able to accept long-time progress with small victories along the way actually sounds like a healthy non-perfectionst's approach.